I thought I'd hit rock bottom.
I was wrong, oh how I couldn't fathom.
The extent to which i could fall
It's really hard to pick up the ball
The decision I made was simple
But now it's growing like a pimple
And I feel like I'm about to burst
But not before I say this first
I hope you're happy, I really do
It's all I've ever, ever, wanted for you
I was selfish, I was to blame
My wishful delusions for glory and fame
"Live a life without regret"
Isn't that what I always said?
I think that is my greatest fear
I'm scared, because I lost something so dear...
FUCK
My mind is a wretch,
I wish I could fetch,
Something.
Something to wedge.
It out.
I can't figure it out.
I'm so used to figuring it out.
And now I can't.
And I'm full of doubt.
And I wish I was somewhere far away, alone, just so I could shout!
Shout out the pain, expel it through a different route.
*breathe*
I always knew karma would haunt me.
I need to get up, I need to be free.
I just wish,
I really wish,
I had the key.
Dude I know how you feel. Different reasons and different situation but still the same result (lost someone you loved the most in your life). Been several months but it still eats me up. But i do feel a little better than before. I found ways to ease it a little.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to tell you but you are going to feel banged up for a long time. Nothing much you can do but try contain it the best way. There's no short fix or next girl. Won't make a difference when you lost something so deep.
Pointers
-stay away from being alone. Do a lot of group work assignments and study with friends. Talk with family about fun stuffs.
-Work hard. Its hard to work hard with things in your mind. But keep battling. Tell yourself to work.
Wish you well bro.
Oh and also, if you ever want to talk though, I'll be there for you. Maybe we can study together.
ReplyDeletep.s Bastard made me register for this stupid blogger to post this comment!
Cyaz
bro...if you ever need some vegetables man...
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